Someone To Care

I'm so confused, sometimes
as my sickness worsens each day
I want someone to love and take care of me
yet, I don't want them to know the depth of my pain

so, I go home alone
and cry myself to sleep in loneliness
because I am unable to live long and sturdy
still, I don't want anyone seeing me like ‘this'

but sometimes my lonely heart longs
for someone special to care
dying isn't something we want to do alone
let pride keeps us from having anyone there

you searched for a ‘healthy' love
because love is what you need
recklessly, you reached elsewhere to find
the love you ever seek

in your ignorance and hurry
to find your inner peace
you desperately saw in another
what you needed to see in me...

....health, and hope, and life
instead of sickness and decline
you found in another
my wish came true, to hide my dying

I shall leave this world soon, God is calling me home
this sickness shall consume
as the end nears
my only wish is that someone would love and care for me
instead of this loneliness of dying alone

~TIGRESS